"...There was no planning for retirement. There was no planning for a career. There was no planning. No time for planning. No time for a future. But then the life spans started getting longer, and people started having more and more future, and so they spent more time thinking about it. About the future. And now life has become the future. Every moment of your life is lived for the future."


- Paper Towns, John Green

Woah, okay. Having been through so much thus far,
I think I can safely conclude that this, whatever it is, is a whole new ball game.
I don't know what to think these days.

Thinking back, I really did see a drastic change between day 1 of secondary school and the pre-O's period.
And I imagine how it's gonna be like now.
Between day 1 of orientation/lectures and after the end of 3 years, how are things going to change?
Quite a scary thought.
There are so many possibilities.
Sigh.

Guess the question here, really, is which risks are worth taking?

Sigh I couldn't be more demoralised now.
I know I've screwed up my major math test today for sure,
and my grades are just horrible, so I've seen.
I really just can't be bothered to get started on anything right now.
Not even for assignments due tomorrow morning.
I can't even draw to the expected standard, hence the C's and B's.
Don't even get me started on how NOT tech-savvy I am.
I'm struggling with photoshop and after-effects.
Heck, I'm struggling with everything mostly.
How am I supposed to keep this up?
Grrhrghghhhh.

1 person already dropped out/transferred out of this course.
I'm really scared now.

Our 2 week semester break doesn't even count as a holiday anymore.
What with all the huge projects coming up that are due once the term starts.
Please please please help me persevere through this.
I need to get this done.

I don't want to lose people, not again.
I may not say this often, but I really cherish the intimacy that's shared between friends.
I wouldn't do anything to jeopardize that.