Not gonna lie, I think I'm gonna go insane soon, if I haven't already.
For so many reasons.

First off, ever since I entered this course I think my english has deteriorated by a significant amount.
And it's not even funny.
Like, no disrespect or anything, but nobody can speak proper or even decent english here.
No-bo-dy.
I mean, I don't know whether to envy them or just.. sigh.
I know that they can't help it, it's just the way they were brought up,
raised in different schools and homes and coming from all sorts of backgrounds.
But really, how is it that it's THAT bad? I can't even---ugh.
Plus the fact that I can relate to absolutely nobody as well isn't helping at all.
Again, no disrespect here, just stating facts;
Everyone in my class is obsessed with all these things that I honestly would regard as...well,
let's just say it's been quite a torment for me.
And believe me, I tried. I have been trying my best to get along, but how long can somebody remain stoic?
I could probably go on but I won't, just gonna leave this as it is for now.

Second, I think I've mentioned this before, no one is ever free anymore.
And by free I mean actually free to go out, like we used to back in the day.
(Wow. Back in the day. Did I really just use that phrase?)
Back then it was just a yes/no kinda thing,
didn't really have to worry much about the time/place, how long we spent out and all that.
Now? It's so inconvenient, such a burden just to organise a simple outing.
Like, credit cards, jobs, appointments, meetings, where did all these come from?
Suddenly everybody had them.
Everybody except me.
I can't help but feel a bit left out.
I don't know, am I digressing here? I think I am.



It'd just be nice to have a friend, just that one friend, regardless of sex or age or whatever,
that I can trust and confide in. That would make time to hear me out, or just to spend time with.
Because right now I have nobody.
Nobody.
And it's killing me.
Sigh.