Essentially, it all boils down to passion vs principle.
I have nothing more to say.
I'm exhausted, I'm upset, I'm conflicted.
Sigh please let me pull through this week for my major assignments,
I really can't handle the mental/emotional stress right now, just not now.

Right about now I feel like packing up all my stuff; my clothes, my belongings, my passport, grab all the cash I've saved up to this point and get to the airport. Don't think, just act. And from there I'd let fate decide what to do with my life. Who knows, I might just be of more use elsewhere. And I'm not kidding I really hope I get the chance to do this soon. A one-way ticket to somewhere, anywhere away from this sad excuse for a country. (Like, take NS as an example. I mean, why defend/serve a country I don't feel I have a stake in?) It's ridiculous. I'm sick and tired of going through this mediocre routine. My parents said so themselves: it's only going to get worse in the future when I'm faced with job placements and other difficulties, that what I'm going through now apparently doesn't compare with what "grown-ups" do. So can you really blame me for pursuing a different path?

It's like the early secondary school days all over again.
I don't want to have to go through that, again.
I really don't.
But then again, life is about these moments are they not?
Sigh I don't know what to think.
Are these opportunities? Or simply delusions?
What if I'm missing out?
The odds when taking chances and risks were never in my favour.
So why should I?

This is obviously too much to think about, and I just don't have time for that.
My mind is already pre-occupied with all the work and assignments that I've yet to complete.
Stressssss.

Ohmygod where did all these assignments come from.
I literally can't keep track of them, they just keep accumulating.
It's like slowly inching your way into an icy pool, and the next thing you know, you're drowning in it.
I think that's a good metaphor for what my assignments have been like so far.
And I'm only 3 weeks into the semester.
After today I felt like my shoulders were a little less burdened, but I still have more work to do.
Maybe just for this weekend I'm allowed to take a breather, and as the weeks pass I'm going to sink deeper and deeper.
I pray I can cope with the pressure.

ANDY WARHOL EXHIBITION NEXT WEEK!
PSYCHEDDD